Current Mood: sleepy

i made a chat room! a pro ana chat room! come chat! er, lemme get the site...oh shit i forget it already...one sec...ah okay, here it is--
http://chatshack.net/2skinnyjeans
ooooh, let's all say we'll be on "most nights" at nine or ten-ish. it's totally pro ana and then we can "chat" instead of just posting...all are welcome!

Current Mood: silly

why fight it? the horrible fat keeps seeming to accumulate, even though, according to my cousins, my "spine sticks out" (sweet!) i can't fit into any pants at h&m, boo. but shirts are still fitting. although my boobs are shrinking, boo again. i'll never give up my goal of weighing 100 pounds even. i might even push myself to under 100. maybe 99 or so...hmmm...
i think part of my problem is that i do not work out. i simply do not have time, at least until after december 4th, when school ends (no exams, hurrah!) but as soon as i can, i will start running like a fiend. i also read somewhere that excessive fidgeting can burn up to 500 extra calories a day! has anyone else heard this? or is it a faulty statement?
anyone who has any more tips regarding losing more weight, send them my way!
lots of love xox

Current Mood: pensive

yesterday was my first experience with ipecac. i drank a lot and then i puked my brains out for like six hours. it was so gross. my barf was neon yellow and foamy. ugh. plus i had to be rushed to the er because apprently i overdosed on the stuff. not so nice. it kills your stomach. but i lost two pounds just barfing yesterday. but then i had to be seen by a bunch of psychs to evaluate me and i lost some dear friends who now know my secret and think i am too much to handle. oh, and i might get expelled from school because i am a "liability". sorry if i have problems, but expelling me is only going to make my life a thousand times worse and then i really will sink deeper into this black hole of depression and ana and never come out. the short and short of this entry is that i do not recommend ipecac syrup-- it takes like shit and makes you feel even worse. just don't eat. it sure beats puking. and losing a good friend. i feel kinda crappy. boo. :(
happy thanksgiving americano mates!
laura xox

Current Mood: morose
Current Music: sia

i am fairly new to the ana community and would love to have some friends and support. my stats are:
Heaviest: 130
Lightest: 106
Current : 106
Height: 5'4.5"
BMI: 18.3
pleeeeease add me :) i could really use some help. i want to reach my hundred mark before christmas.

Current Location: bedroom
Current Mood: pensive
Current Music: the raconteurs

this weekend was quite lovely, i think i lost some weight. but until we buy a freaking scale, i'll never know. i'll weigh myself at the doctor's on tuesday and then post my weight. i hope i lost at least two pounds. i've been drinking diet coke and i've eaten two tea biscuits and a load of celery. i don't think that's too fattening, minus the tea biscuits, which had 273 cals a piece (ouch!). but i feel thinner, and i've been having an easier and easier time controlling my urges to eat by thinking of how great it will be when i am under that 100 mark.
my friends are a bit worried about me i think. but they know there is nothing they can do to change my mind, i'm pro-ana and that is all there is to it. my friend kris asked me why i am so eager to be thinner. i had to think about it, but i believe the answer has something to do with the fact that the rest of my life is falling apart, and this is one thing that i definitely have control over. my parents are either abusive or absent, i suck at school, i don't really care about anything. but i am bloody OBSESSED with my weight. UGH, tonight, i am going to my nonna's house, as we do every sunday, and she'll have definitely cooked up some huge meal which everyone will expect me to partake in the eating of. i'm going to try eating veeeeery slowly and maybe no one will notice that i am eating way less than they are. fingers crossed.
happy thanksgiving to my american mates. stay strong.
hope all is well!

Current Mood: apathetic
Current Music: coheed and cambria

hello girls!
I had an interesting day. It seems as though my doctors are getting worried that I might be aquiring an eating disorder. DUH! hahaha. This is exactly what I want. FINALLY people are beginning to notice that I am thinner. However, now I must work hard to conceal it, so that they don't make me go to some group therapy crap. Baggy sweaters, here I come!
Today I did a pretty good job in regards to eating. I had A LOT of celery, dipped in miniscule amounts of mustard (celery is almost completely water, and mustard is low-cal). I also had about six slices of cucumber and a diet coke. I was so proud of this until I saw the evil, EVIL muffins in the Piazza (cafeteria type thing at my school) and I CAVED IN AND ATE ONE! I wanted to die! But I think I managed to keep it under 500 today. How can you really tell? Like, exactly how many calories are in a stick of celery? hmmm...
UGH, the other night I ate like a MANIAC! I had two peanut butter sandwiches, a bit of pasta, some crackers and some soup. And then I promptly threw it up, which was WAY gross, but I felt SO FAT!
Also, the fact that we don't have a scale at my house is really beginning to annoy me. I'll have to wait until Tuesday when I go to the doctor's to weigh myself again in her bathroom. Which is good on one hand, because then maybe I'll have lost more weight...but I want to know NOW! hahaha, you all know what it's like.
I love having friends who understand, and don't try to force food down my throat.
Hope you're all well!
Love, Laura

Current Mood: pensive

so my mum does not "believe" in scales and therefore we do not have one...UGH. so i always weight myself using the one in the bathroom at school. and today i was very disappointed because, although i barely ate a thing over the weekend, i still weigh 108 pounds! this is a major plateau, it seems. i just need to lose eight pounds and everything will be better. does anyone have any tips or tricks about how i might lose eight pounds in two weeks? i don't think it should be too difficult, i just need the right ammunition. so if anyone has any tips (dieting pills, workouts, diets) ANYTHING would be GREATLY appreciated.
Thanksss!
love Laura